Trying to do everything I can to NOT think about what I did to myself last night, but of course, a series of unfortunate events started happening. So what did I do? I cried; I cried like a loser. On a scale from 1 to 10, my vulnerability is at a 9.7 and I’m not sure how to control it. For example, I was at Target earlier today looking for the perfect Mother’s Day card for my mom and Lola and while reading all the cute little cards, I started crying, AT TARGET! Who does that? Me, it seems.
AAAAHHHH! And then I lost my debit card, my phone decided to not work, I was almost late to an exam, thank God my professor was kind enough to let me in, I have a $155 citation for talking on my cell phone while driving, I still haven’t paid my gas and electric bill, I’m still unemployed, finals are right around the corner and I’m literally FCKED. What is going on??
I’m not usually one to be upset or get angry or sad, but right now, I’m all of those things. I’m more angry at myself because I’m letting myself get like this. So, I’m doing what any other girl would do when they’re having shitty days. Eating and wallowing and crying and listening to stupid slow jams (which I am SO against). My lovely friends are helping me so much, but it’s only day #1 and I’m ready to go crazy (as if it hasn’t happened already).
UGH. I never vent through a blog and it’s embarrassing that I’m doing it right now. Man, I already miss that nigga. Okay, well that’s it for now. Hope ya’ll are having better days.